Exhausted

I guess you can get physically ill from being exhausted.

This morning I got up for work, and I was still very tired. (i slept before 10 last night). I fell asleep in the car (my mom drove) on the way there. As we're opening up the store, I start feeling dizzy--like I'm going to pass out, so I sit down. I close my eyes to see if that would make me feel better and I catch myself falling asleep. I then stand up because I shouldn't be sleeping at work, but as I stand up, I'm hit with nausea and run to the trash can to vomit.

I thought, at first, it could be my blood pressure (with the headaches I've been having, etc.), but I think it really is from just me being exhausted.

I hate that it seems like I complain a lot. I really am not trying to be a whiner which is why I don't tell anyone how TRULY TIRED I am. I don't want anyone thinking I'm being dramatic or overreacting, but I just want to sleep in and lay in bed. However, I can't. I get up every morning at 4:45 and leave the house at 5. I am on my feet working until I sit down to eat lunch at the end of my 8 hour shift. I don't get home until almost 3 pm where I then tend to the boys and do homework.

I know I chose to do all of this though. I chose to continue with schooling. I NEED to work right now. And yes, I didn't prevent this pregnancy. This doesn't mean that I can't be tired just because I made these choices. I AM tired. I just have to stick it out. I need to get school over, so that I'm not busting my butt for a little over minimum wage.

I know God will pull me through. I have to leave it in his hands and just try to take better care of myself somehow.