Clear Head.

Things are hard for us. Yes, they are. BUT, I know there are people out there who have it a million times worse. I have some mommy friends who are going through health issues right now. So, after my last post I felt bad that I was complaining about car troubles. 


But then I was thinking about it.. it’s not JUST car troubles. It’s being car-less AGAIN. It’s being car-less after over a year of being car-less. It’s being car-less after a year of relying on people to just go to the store for groceries. It means being car-less in a town where there is no bus system, no taxi service (not that we could afford to keep taking the taxi anyway), and a town where we have no family to say, “hey can you take us to the store real quick?” 

It’s about my husband not having a ride to work and then possibly losing his job!

So yes, people have it a million times worse but that doesn’t mean my problems are nothing. They are still hard for me at this moment. 

I do know that with God things will work out. They always do eventually. I just hope they work out fast. “/

So back to square one it is...

I can’t believe this.. really, I can’t. It’s like we don’t have it hard enough as is.


 The two of us both in school, him working on top of that, both being away from home and family, and many other little inconveniences. And now on top of all of that, no mode of transportation. 

We took it to the shop and they ran diagnostic testing on it. We need a new transmission which will cost us the same amount we paid for the car in the first place. Something we definitely can’t afford. 

I really don’t know what we are going to do. I feel like just giving up everything and moving back home. Although I know after I calm down and think about everything, it’s probably not going to be worth it to move home because everything there is a lot more expensive than here. Ugh.. :’(

Thomas the Train

I love that whenever my family sees something with Thomas the Train, they think of Trenton.

My older sister just called me to say that she was at the store and they were having a sale. There was a Thomas outfit and she wanted to know Trenton's size. :)

Trenton loves Thomas (and the other trains from the show too)!

Some things with Thomas that he owns so far are:

-underwear
-outfits
-DVDs
-books
-a lunchbag
-a spinning toothbrush
-a sunglasses
-one soft plush Thomas
-one rubber bath Thomas toy

Every time we go to Walmart, I try to avoid the Thomas clothes and the toys section because if he sees something with Thomas on it he will throw a fit to have it. lol

Kids in their own beds.

I cleared out Titan's playpen (it turned into storage somehow.. haha) and put a new blanket down. After I got him out of the shower, I nursed him and when he fell asleep I put him in the playpen. Of course, right when I laid him down he sat up and started crying. Then, he realized he was in the playpen and started screaming. Instead of picking him up, I walked out leaving the door cracked open a bit. 

I was reminded why I NEVER could do the cry it out method. He is already 13 months old and it still broke my heart. He was crying so hard and Tayven kept wanting to check on him but I told him not to. It was so sweet because Tay was really sad about hearing Titan cry. :( It was only like 3 or 4 minutes before I went in to grab him. I calmed him down and nursed him. This time I finally waited till he was really asleep and then put him in the playpen. He's been asleep for almost an hour. Oh boy it's going to be SO HARD if he doesn't wean himself and I have to do it. "/

Also, starting two nights ago Tayven and Trenton have been sleeping in their own bed in their room. Trenton was still sleeping with me (out of habit not because he HAD to). He had no problem whatsoever sleeping with Tay in his own room. :D 

Now, I just have to work on them going to bed earlier and getting up earlier. *sigh*