Trying to get adjusted

Our first night home was a tad miserable.

Titan has been sick starting that night. He had a fever, runny nose, and cough. So, he has been really clingy. He cries to nurse whenever Taimani is nursing. He cries when she cries because he is really sympathetic. He wants to sit in her bouncy chair and cover with her blankets. He cries for almost everything really. "/

I know he has to adjust, but I keep thinking that maybe things will be different in a few days when he isn't feeling sick. Probably wishful thinking on my part.

He loves her, but I know it's a big change for him especially since he was the baby. He is helpful though and wants to grab her diapers. He always asks to hold her, but I told him he needs to feel better first.

Tayven and Trenton are doing great. They love her and ask to hold her, but they go off and do their own thing a lot of the time. They are happy she's home now and not at the hospital.

Geez, it's hard to believe I am a mom of FOUR!

School is tough. Catching up and keeping up with assignments is tough. I have to do my outline for my speech by Wednesday and I didn't even get to really start researching. I don't know where to begin. Plus, it's even harder with so much on my mind.

I have phone calls to make, doctor appointments to set, laundry to do, bills to pay and no money to pay it. Things are tough.

Just praying that things will get better and fast.

Did I mention that I can't believe I have 4 kids? It still hasn't really hit me yet. It hasn't even really hit me that I have a daughter now.