Kids in their own beds.

I cleared out Titan's playpen (it turned into storage somehow.. haha) and put a new blanket down. After I got him out of the shower, I nursed him and when he fell asleep I put him in the playpen. Of course, right when I laid him down he sat up and started crying. Then, he realized he was in the playpen and started screaming. Instead of picking him up, I walked out leaving the door cracked open a bit. 

I was reminded why I NEVER could do the cry it out method. He is already 13 months old and it still broke my heart. He was crying so hard and Tayven kept wanting to check on him but I told him not to. It was so sweet because Tay was really sad about hearing Titan cry. :( It was only like 3 or 4 minutes before I went in to grab him. I calmed him down and nursed him. This time I finally waited till he was really asleep and then put him in the playpen. He's been asleep for almost an hour. Oh boy it's going to be SO HARD if he doesn't wean himself and I have to do it. "/

Also, starting two nights ago Tayven and Trenton have been sleeping in their own bed in their room. Trenton was still sleeping with me (out of habit not because he HAD to). He had no problem whatsoever sleeping with Tay in his own room. :D 

Now, I just have to work on them going to bed earlier and getting up earlier. *sigh*

You know you're nursing a toddler when.. (maybe TMI)

• they nurse and then run away to play leaving you to squirt milk all over
• when they get squirted in the face and think it’s hilarious.
• when you are sitting down and they come to help themselves.
• when they’re eating and then nurse with food in their mouth leaving crumbs on your boobs. (lol just happened).
• when they get mad that someone is touching your boobs or pretending to nurse (he attacks my husband if my husband pretends LOL).
• while nursing they put their hand in your shirt to play with the other nipple. 
• your nipples/boobs can stretch/twist in ways you've never seen before (haha) and your nipples can stretch about a good 2 inches. 
• when you can calm a tantrum, stop tears, and ease pain just by nursing.

To be continued.. 

Titan is ONE!

He turned a year old on January 14th.

I picked up a cake for him. Nothing special because I didn’t call ahead of time. I just picked from what they had there and had them write on it for me. We sang for him and ate cake here at home. 

This year went by so fast. I know everyone says that, but this year truly did. It went by faster than any other year. With Tay and Trent, I was excited when they turned one. With Titan, though, I’m sad. When I look at him, I still see a baby. I know he’ll always be my baby, but I just can’t seem to accept that he’s pretty much a toddler now. He’s slowly becoming independent. 

He walks and even runs everywhere. He plays rough with his brothers and loves running away from them or chasing them. He babbles a lot more, is making new sounds, and says a few words. He loves to dance. He can now point, but it's kind of with his whole hand rather than just his pointer finger. When we ask him, "where is ___?" (mommy, daddy, or his brother's names) he will look in their direction and sometimes will even point. We do this thing where we make a humming noise in his ear. Well, the other day I put my ear near his face and he did it back to me! 


He is really goofy! Just like his brothers and parents. hehe :) He's also very loving and can be dramatic. He'll pretend cry and pretend laugh. He is a ton of fun. 
Another thing is that it has been one year since I’ve been breastfeeding! I am very proud because with the other two I didn’t make it past 2 weeks of nursing. A whole year! No pumping, no substituting formula, and not starting solids until after 6 months really and even then he didn’t even want baby food, so we waited to give “table” food around 10 months. I’m proud and happy to have nursed this long. Happy that my milk supply stayed up and that he was a boobie monster. 


Here's some pictures of his birthday:

His Cake

His big brothers were quite excited for him. :)

"mm I am going to devour this!"

hehe

Opening his gift from his birthday buddy, Zeb. 

His excited, goofy face!

He loves it. (so does his big brothers haha)

Titan is unique.

Of course all of my kids are unique, but compared to his brothers he has quite a few differences.

1. He’s the only one we tried/planned for.
2. He’s the only one conceived in wedlock. (he was conceived right after we got married (a couple days after). Although we didn’t really have a honeymoon, he was our “honeymoon baby.” 
3. He’s the only one not born in Hawaii and born in Utah (so far). 
4. He’s the only one who was breastfed past 2 weeks postpartum. 
5. He’s the only one who has not met my family (yet). 

This is random and I was just thinking about this when I was laying in bed this morning. 

My Day

Got up, went down stairs to talk to our rental manager to get a copy of our old lease, came back up and got Titan ready. I got ready and the two of us left to his dr's appt. About 20 minutes after we left, the hubby woke Tayven up, got him ready and got him on the bus for school. 

Titan didn't care for his doctor or his nurse.. he cried even when they weren't touching him! lol He's still freaking 22 lbs. He gained like 1/2 a pound in TWO months! ugh. I'm going to fatten this kid up. My doctor thinks maybe my milk supply is diminishing but I don't think it is. I honestly am not sure how to tell if it is. I think it's because he never cared for baby food and so I stopped feeding it to him. I've just been feeding him from my plate. Idk but the doc will see him again at the end of January to see if he gains weight. I'm going to be feeding him like crazy lol. He was 22 lbs which is only the 61 percentile and 31 in. which is the 93 percentile. 

He was a bit above average for his milestones and development which is good. :) 

After his appt, we came home, hung out, and waited for the hubby to get home from school to have dinner. Now, we're just hanging out in the living room watching TV. 

Breastfeeding in Public

Like the saying goes, "you don't want to see it, then look the other way."

For crying out loud, mothers who nurse in public are just FEEDING THEIR BABIES. We do not ask for attention. We are not asking your husbands to look at us. My son does not like a blanket over his head while he eats, do you? Will you cover up your baby's face while you feed them their bottle? I think not. Will you go and take your food to eat in a bathroom if I asked you to? I think not. If my baby is screaming because he is hungry, I am not going to go looking for a nursing room (if there is even one) nor a secluded area. Moms who bottle feed do not go looking for a private area when their kid is screaming to eat.. they sit and make the dang bottle.

If you say you and your husband don't want to see a part of my boob exposed when feeding my baby, I hope that you both don't watch porn, or read magazines, go to the beach, or watch TV for that matter. There are more boobs there than you will see when mothers are nursing.

Vent over. For now.. lol

Half a year ....

I made it!! Half a year of breastfeeding down.. Half a year to go!! 

I am proud that I've come this far. =)

Yes, this is how he likes to eat =)

He is either holding his foot or pinching/hitting my face/chest. 

AHHHHHHH!

I have a few ahhhh's to share.

The first one is that Titan's first tooth (bottom, left side) has come through! I am scared to get bit. He wants to bite down on everything and I am scared every time it is time to feed him.

The second is that my three classes started today. I have Psychology, Anatomy & Physiology II, and Anatomy & Physiology II Lab. There is so much work! I have no idea how I am going to do all of it along with being a mom of three. I just barely got through it the last time I had three classes.

The third is that I went to the dentist yesterday and found out that my impacted wisdom tooth is infected. I need to have it taken out by an oral surgeon. There are no oral surgeons where I live, so I have to travel to Prove which is an hour north of here. I have to be gone for approx. 3-4 and I won't be able to nurse Titan. So now I have to get him to learn to drink from a bottle before that day comes. Which makes me extremely sad... I hope that he still nurses from me when I get back. :(

I want to pull my hair out already, but I can't do that because I am already going bald. "/

Please pray for me that I will remain sane through the next two months!