I'm Torn.

I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m feeling torn about school.

I’m feeling like I want to put school off for a while. I really feel like I should have waited until my kids were in school and just got a decent paying job to get us by. Then again the reason I started school was to get started while I’m not working and staying at home with the boys. But I realized that school takes up a lot of my time. Like I’ve mention in my last post, I’m making a lot of changes. I’m setting up a little classroom for the boys and I want to spend my times teaching and playing with them. After all they are only young once and they grow up so fast. :( I’m so torn.

A friend did suggest that I wake up earlier than the boys to get some work done and then getting more done when they are asleep. I guess I could do that… with lack of sleep seeing as I have an infant as well. I’m already lacking concentration on my work as is, imagine with the lack of sleep! I really don’t know. Maybe it’s this hard because I have three classes? Next semester I’ll have only one class, a hard one, but at least it’s just one.

I’m just going to keep praying about it but in the mean time do you have any suggestions?? What would you do??