I really can't decide....

If you didn't already know, we have been in need of a car for over a year. We now have some money to actually get one, so we have been on a hunt. Last weekend we drove up to Provo in search of one. We stopped at a dealership to see if they had any used cars in our price range, but they didn't.  The salesman took down our name and number and said he'll call us if something comes in.  Well, he called tonight.

They have a car. I won't go into details about what type or the price but it is a good deal. We just need to see it and see how we all fit, etc. Since, we don't have a car and have to borrow a ride to go up there, we told him the earliest we could go see it would be on Monday. He said that because the car is in really great shape for the price, someone would most likely buy it by then. He said we could put $100 down to hold it. But, (there's always a dang but!) the $100 was non-refundable. So, if we don't like the car for some reason, they would hold the $100 until they get another car in our price range...

The thing is, if we get this car we won't have much money left. Therefore, not enough money to buy our tickets to go home. I promised my grandpa who just had his 7th or 8th heart surgery that I would be there to see him for Christmas. I told my mom and my husband that if I didn't go I will probably go into a depression and then my mom said she will be terminally ill. She said her aches, pains, and some other private issues are just getting worse.

If we don't get this car, we will have to continue to ask for a ride or bug our Bishop for the next almost 5 months. Something we do not want to do! I really don''t know what to do... :(

Homesick.

We have been here in Utah for a year now, and I have never felt so homesick as I do now.

Not a day goes by that I don't think of moving back home.

I get jealous and upset when I read about these family get-togethers that friends on Facebook are having or when I see pictures. I shouldn't feel that way, but I do. I can't help it.

It truly sucks not being near family. It sucks to talk to my mom on the phone when she's at my aunty's house with our family. Tayven tells me he wants to go back home too. My mother-in-law keeps telling us to move back.

I know we will go back eventually but the Hubby will be doing this fall semester here. He also has a lot of check ups for his eye. I guess I just have to continue "hanging in there" until this semester is over and then see what we will do from there.