Sibling Love

Forgive me if this post is all over the place. Often times, I have a hard time finding the right words to say and when it comes to how I feel about my children, words often don’t do it justice. 

I remember when Tayven was our only child. He was our world. I couldn’t imagine even having another child. Then, he turned 2 years old. He was already very independent for a 2 year old. A few weeks after his birthday, I found out I was pregnant. I already had “baby fever” a bunch of times before that. I was so happy and excited, but at the same time I was so scared and sad. Was I taking all the attention away from Tayven? Will I love the next baby the same as I love Tay? Will I be able to share my love between the two? 

Tayven was always around adults and sometimes a few cousins, but other than that he was pretty lonely. He would always want to be outside and play with the neighborhood kids. When Trenton was born, Tayven was amazing with him. I couldn’t wait until Trenton was big enough so they could really play. 

Then, we tried to conceive Titan and got pregnant when Trenton was 11 months old. They were going to be pretty close in age. Again, I couldn’t wait to see how Tay and Trent would be with the new baby.

The point I’m getting at is that it warms my heart when I see all of my boys playing together. It is one of the greatest feelings ever. A great feeling next to the feeling of giving birth. To see them interact, to play, to kiss or hug each other, and to help one another is absolutely amazing. Yes, siblings often fight lol but even through the fighting they still love each other at the end of the day. 

Sometimes I’ll catch them in the sweetest moments. One time I caught Tayven reading to his little brothers. There was another incident where I took the two boys to play on the playground in our complex (which is right across the parking lot and I could see it from our living room window). Titan was sleeping in the house so I had to keep checking on him. Well, Titan woke up so I had the boys come inside but Trenton wouldn’t listen. Titan was screaming, so I went into the apartment to get him and I told Tayven to go get Trenton and bring him home. I watched from the living room window (I was nursing Titan) as Tayven held his brothers hand and made Trenton look both ways in the parking and then they crossed together. It was one of the sweetest moments that I’ll never forget. Some other times are the random cuddles and kisses they give each other out of the blue. 

I can’t imagine Tayven ever being an only child anymore. A lot of the time I have a hard time even remembering what it was like to just have one kid. With each kid you have, it’s hard to ever imagine what life was like before them. 

I love my boys. :)

I love my boys!

Titan is ONE!

He turned a year old on January 14th.

I picked up a cake for him. Nothing special because I didn’t call ahead of time. I just picked from what they had there and had them write on it for me. We sang for him and ate cake here at home. 

This year went by so fast. I know everyone says that, but this year truly did. It went by faster than any other year. With Tay and Trent, I was excited when they turned one. With Titan, though, I’m sad. When I look at him, I still see a baby. I know he’ll always be my baby, but I just can’t seem to accept that he’s pretty much a toddler now. He’s slowly becoming independent. 

He walks and even runs everywhere. He plays rough with his brothers and loves running away from them or chasing them. He babbles a lot more, is making new sounds, and says a few words. He loves to dance. He can now point, but it's kind of with his whole hand rather than just his pointer finger. When we ask him, "where is ___?" (mommy, daddy, or his brother's names) he will look in their direction and sometimes will even point. We do this thing where we make a humming noise in his ear. Well, the other day I put my ear near his face and he did it back to me! 


He is really goofy! Just like his brothers and parents. hehe :) He's also very loving and can be dramatic. He'll pretend cry and pretend laugh. He is a ton of fun. 
Another thing is that it has been one year since I’ve been breastfeeding! I am very proud because with the other two I didn’t make it past 2 weeks of nursing. A whole year! No pumping, no substituting formula, and not starting solids until after 6 months really and even then he didn’t even want baby food, so we waited to give “table” food around 10 months. I’m proud and happy to have nursed this long. Happy that my milk supply stayed up and that he was a boobie monster. 


Here's some pictures of his birthday:

His Cake

His big brothers were quite excited for him. :)

"mm I am going to devour this!"

hehe

Opening his gift from his birthday buddy, Zeb. 

His excited, goofy face!

He loves it. (so does his big brothers haha)

Titan will be walking by the end of the month!

He walks every chance he gets. He stands up from a sitting position on his own and just starts taking steps. He can balance and then take more steps. The longest distance he has gone without falling is across our living room. He even tries to run after his brothers! hehe

Here is a video of the big boy "walking"..

Just a ramble

I haven't been blogging much lately. One, because I have been doing school work, spending time with the boys, and getting other things done. Two, I haven't had much exciting things to blog about.

I'll just talk about some things that's been going on and about the boys-- of course. :)

The hubby and I have been talking and I'm hoping to be able to get the money to go back home and visit sometime before Titan's first birthday. I've been looking around at plane tickets and prices. I really want everyone to meet Titan and get to see Tay and Trent.

Right now, school isn't too stressful. I have two classes. I have keyboarding which is really easy and kinda fun. I also have Math which is just refreshing our memory so it's not too bad so far. I'm sure it'll get harder as the weeks go on.

My boys seriously amaze me. Tayven is learning to read, write, and spell. He's been spelling words like hot, pot, pan, bat, rat, pig, hit, etc. The other night he spelled robot on his own by sounding it out! He loves school! Last week he had show and tell. He took one of his favorite books, "Green Eggs and Ham." We had to give the class three clues so together we chose:
1. my mommy and I share this together every night
2. it's a rectangle shape
3. it goes on a shelf (he came up with this on his own)

Trenton has been going to the toilet by himself, sometimes he just wants me or Tayven to turn on the light for him lol. He is also talking in sentences more. He can put his puzzles together and is learning his colors and to count to 5.

Titan is crawling everywhere and cruising all the furniture in the house. He likes when I hold onto his hands and he walks everywhere. He turned 8 months old almost a week ago. He amazes me because when Tay and Trent are playing in their room, he crawls over there and will sit there playing with his brothers and the toys. I don't know what 8 month old does that? If he wants me or is hungry, he'll just crawl over to me. He's so laid back and mellow!

They are a bunch of loving wild boys! I love seeing them interact with each other. Tayven is a GREAT big brother to both of them(when he's not hitting or fighting with Trenton) and Trent is great with Titan for the most part (sometimes he doesn't pay attention and hits or steps on Titan's fingers/foot or falls over him). I love my boys! :D

Tayven's first day of Preschool

Yesterday was Tayven's first day of school. He was so excited, but mommy was so sad. I couldn't believe my BABY was going to school. Never mind the fact that it is only two days a week for 2.5 hours-- he is still not at home with me!

He was such a big boy. He made me so sad because he didn't want to hold my hand nor kiss me bye! He was "embarrassed." :( Isn't he too young to start being like that? Geez. I teared up walking out of the school.

I decided to drive him to school on his first day. The bus was running behind so we arrived before the other kids.  Another girl came right after Tay did and so we were all standing in the room. Although we arrived first one of the teacher's aides took the little girl to take her backpack to her cubby.  Then another aide asked Tay his name then took him to his cubby. The first aide that took the girl came back and said "Oh I'm sorry, I didn't know that was Tayven! He's so .. Tall!" hehe. After that I left.

Here are some pictures:

This is him before we left the house. (Trenton had to jump in...that HAM!)

This is the preschool side of the school.

This is the most of the school.

This is him in front of the entrance into the school.

This is blurry but it's right outside of his classroom. 

This is his classroom. To the right of this there is a reading/stage area and also a dress-up/play kitchen area. Toward the back where Tay is, there is a computer mat area and to the right is the cubbies, bathroom, and door to their playground.

He rode the bus home from school, so when the bus got here we all went outside to meet him. Trenton ran up to him yelling "Tayvennnnn!" and gave him a big hug. It was so cute!! :) Then of course mommy and daddy hounded him with questions. I wanted to know EVERYTHING they did. He was annoyed with all the questions lol. Anyway, Trenton hugged him again so I snapped a pic.. 

Sweet right? Well after this Trenton punched Tayven and they started wrestling.. typical boys & brothers! hehe

He really enjoyed his day and couldn't wait to go back today!

An update since it's been a while

This week has been crazy with school work among other things. This is pretty much my last week of these three classes (I just have a couple things to do next week).  I have a 2 final exams due and a regular weekly exam due this week, along with all of the other assignments, labs, and discussions that I already turned in.

Anyway, I figured I would give an update  =)

Tayven is doing pretty well.  He is bored at home (mostly because I've been busy with school work the last few weeks).  I really wish he was going to school this year-- only for the fact that he wants to go.  My sister, Kandi, sent us a bunch of workbooks that she got from her job, so during my two weeks off after these classes we will be working on those!

Trenton is completely potty trained at 27 months old.  I'm so proud of him! He now can go pee by himself.  He grabs the stool, places it in front of the toilet, then climbs onto the toilet and pees.  All I have to do a bit later is get him to stand and pee.  He is also talking TONS more.  He loves to talk on the phone-- it's his new thing, hehe.  He loves to "fight" (rough & tumble) with Tayven and he loves to bug Titan and make him laugh.

Titan is crazy! He is doing so many things.  He is cruising furniture now and his 4th tooth is currently popping through his gums.  He can start crawling from a sitting position and then sit down from a crawling position.  He's also trying to CLIMB onto the couch and STAND from a crawling position. Basically, he is very mobile.  He calls me mama and reaches for me and daddy.  He does not do too well around strangers, but that is because he is only around us 24/7.  He waved hi for the 1st time today! He loves to "play" with his big brothers and follow them around the apartment.  I think that's pretty much it for right now.

My hubby starts school on Wednesday.  I'm excited for him to get out of this dang house.  It'll be good for him, especially after being cooped up in the house for so long.  The boys and I will miss him though. Like I mentioned above, I get two weeks off in between these classes and the next ones, so I'm super excited to spend time with my boys and get some much needed rearranging done!

Busy Month for Titan

This month is a busy month for Titan.

So far this month, he has started crawling, pulled himself up to stand, has his third tooth coming in (the top left), and can say more sounds. He says mama, baba, the g sounds, and da.

It is really crazy that he is growing so fast.

The weird thing about this is that I do not have "baby fever." Usually when my kids hit big milestones like crawling and stuff, I start wanting another baby. I don't feel that right now.. but like my husband said, "just wait until he starts walking." lol :P I'm just enjoying him and loving it.

He loves his brothers!! Trenton cracks him up all the time. I really love seeing them interact with each other.

He is mobile!

So.. Titan is now crawling!

Today is the first time he actually got up on his knees. He can now get around all over the living room and he loves it. :)

He loves to smile and show off his two bottom teeth. He loves his older brothers and likes to play with them. He loves to stand up! Sometimes when we try to make him sit he'll stretch out his legs because he doesn't want to.. lol. He's trying to pull himself up and almost has it. He can now say mama, baba, and the g sound. He likes to blow raspberries too :P He eats cereal with some baby food once a day and he now eats Gerber puffs.

I must be doing something right.

The other day I took the boys to play outside. Well, when it's time to go inside, Trenton gives me a hard time because he doesn't want to come in. Titan was crying to eat, so I told the boys it was time to go in the house.

The little playground is right across the parking lot next to another building in our complex. Well, I started walking to the house, but Trenton refused to follow me. I went inside but opened the windows to watch him. Then, I had Tayven go and bring his brother home. As I'm feeding Titan, I am watching them from the window.

Tayven, walks across the parking lot and grabs Trenton by the hand. They got towards the parking lot and before crossing I see Tayven make Trenton look both ways. Then, together they walked across the street. I was amazed! I was telling my hubby to look out the window and we were watching them. He not only remembered about safety and what I taught him, but he was watching over and teaching his little brother!

I always try to raise my boys the best that I can, but at that moment I knew I was doing something right :D

Absolutely, one of my proud mommy moments!